Thursday, April 28, 2005
bloody hell! what is WRONG with you.YES YOU! -too bad if you don't know who you are.
can't you JUST study and KEEP YOUR GRADES UP! i mean like its NOT THAT HARD RIGHT!
what in the world is a 3/30 FOR MATH! do WE have to knock you brain into place?! don't you even have an responsibility. we're yelling around the house all cause of YOU! can't you tell?! so why don't you just pull up your sock AND WE DONT HAVE TO FIGHT. just do your work study INSTEAD of watching TV the whole darn DAY. you think life is that easy?!
everythings provided. we clean up after you. money is there. the house is there. food is there.
don't you even have any sense of gratitude in you?! i guess you won't even realise im talking about YOU! since you rarely come to my blog anyway. so here i am venting out CIVILISLY since i am trying to get hold of myself. like WHATEVER. just bloody buck up and change you're attitude. we've been reminding you a million times already. FINE. you can be that way. no one can every change you stupid attitude. no use giving you preachy talks. why? cause you won't even listen. you wont even change. cause you just too stubborn and refuse to listen. fine. i can't talk to you cause of the past. the year of hatred burning in us everyday. the fights the anger the crying the screaming. the words that stung my heart and left a scar. sighs.
i'm going to have a talk with you tomorrow. i pray that God's gonna help it go smoothly. i'm gonna pray that you're gonna listen. hope everything goes well. sigh.
{ tear my heart open }
11:45 pm
280405, thursday
okay. i am STUPIDLY wasting my holiday. -there i go yapping away again- oh well. i'm supposed to be doing my homework and stufying BUT i cant see to control myself from switching on the tv or the computer. -slaps self
yesterday was mummys birthday! :D
today is my parents anniversary! :D
tomorrow is my daddys birthday! :D
triple celebration! :D ho ho.
k i am bored. don't mind me.
training has been tiring these few days.
SUCKS. have loads of muscle aches.
and its the workouts we've NOT done for a long time. haha.
i'm so screwd -sarcastic
oh well. guess im gonna DRILL myself to do work now.
SIGHs. come back later.
{ tear my heart open }
4:00 pm
Monday, April 25, 2005
250405* monday
lets see. i wasted one whole day doing nothing. WOW! :D hahas. been on the comp practically the whole day. watched a little of cartoons and ate. gonna get fat one day. muah ha ha. had no training. didn't go down to jurong east to watch the badminton girls play. was too far and i was too lazy anyway. ho ho. oh well. i was HIGH at one point of time! for about an hour! lols. sammie kwan thought i was MAD. and kept calling me cute -.- funny WOMAN! xD freaking cow. la la la. was high on testimonials too! hee hee. oh well. guess its back to training. and studying too. SIGH. training tmr. come back. study. think i'm gonna bring books to study along the way. sighs. guess there's nothing much now! toodles.
{ tear my heart open }
9:08 pm
250405, monday.
Be strong and take courage,
Do not hear or be dismayed;
For the Lord will go before you,
And His light will show the way.
Be strong and take courage,
Do not fear or be dismayed;
For the One who lives within you
Will be strong in you today.
Why don't you give Him all of your fears?
Why don't you let him wipe all of your tears?
He knows! He's been thru pain before,
And He knows all that you've been looking for.
Nothing can take you out of His hand;
Nothing can face you that you can't command.
I know that you will always be in His love;
In His power you will be free.
i love choir practice :D the song is beautiful (:
{ tear my heart open }
10:53 am
Sunday, April 24, 2005
laughing, dancing
prancing, crying
OVERJOYED TEARS;
i am so HAPPY! :D :D :D! the virus is GONE! i'm allowed to use FRIENDSTER AND BLOGGER AND HOTMAIL! (: finally. couldn't LIVE withOUT them. sighhhs. pressure and stress free. hees. i couldn't blog. and JAVA and COOKIES were missing too!
STUPID VIRUS. life was so cruel with it. hrumpff-
anyway. had Allcomers today. came in 3rd. not too bad i guess. but the jumps were shit. and i mean SHIT. didn't run fast enough and i wasnt in the mood for competition. oh well. anyway its HOLIDAY! muahahas.
lols. im too happy to say anything else.
okay. CHERYL TONE DOWN! hrummppp.. okay. lets see. sam just got back 3 weeks ago and he's gone already. sighs. oh well. just talked to laura the other day. miss her loads! ): i'm getting more and more distanced from everyone. seriously what is happening? its like i don't know anyone anymore. well. guess cause everyone is studying. bahhh~
ohoh. i was super enthu today in church! HAHA! i went mad. and choir practice is FUN! :D youth sunday is next week. HA HA! cant wait! :) cant wait to praise God. realise i've asked and asked and asked. BUT. i never listen for him. i never appreciate the silence he gave. silence with the answers. now i realise. God IS good. (: many things to thank him for. (: nothing much now. BYE! (:
VIRUS IS GONEEEEE :D
{ tear my heart open }
10:10 pm
Friday, April 22, 2005
yes YES YES! (:
its the holidays! hell YEAHHHH~
pwweeeeettt.
well the weak was okay i guess.
had math AND chinese test today.
and i can gladly say that i'll PASS BOTH! :D
weeeeeeee~
mugging hard paid off! hee
didnt have training today.
training at 9AM (freak) at gombak tmr.
sighhh. gonna compete at Allcomers on Sunday.
yupps. hope i do well. hope my ankle doesnt get worst!
cause its on the road to being better! YAY!
nothing much to day now. NIGHTS (:
{ tear my heart open }
11:17 pm
Sunday, April 17, 2005
commiunication through faith*
my stupid rashes still wont go away! -pouts
went to church today. had bible study. steph wasnt here so dominic led today. yupps. time management. pretty good actually. (: yeah. oh was supposed to go down to gombak and watch the juniors jump but i didn't go in the end. heehee. i stayed back for choir practice since i havent gone for a million years. it was good! :D although we got lost a little. hees. valerie lost her whole bag in church. goodness. someone took it. its like unbelievable! someone FROM CHURCH. sighs. oh well.
went to lavendar food court for lunch. (: i love the pancakes! yummmyyyyyyy~ hahas. yeahhh. gonna go back tmr. (: YAY! i can have my aircon for one more day. heeee. hmm. jumpers did not bad! (: mariam and matthew got 1st. jannah and amanda did real good too! oh well GALOO! its alright ya? its just nats jr. you'll do much better next time! just dont step overboard! (:
k thats all. bye (:
{ tear my heart open }
7:11 pm
Saturday, April 16, 2005
i want to see your most beautiful smile.
i have frekaing rashes! UGH UGH UGH! ITCHY! i hate it! YUCKS! i cant scratch cause it hurts! stupid stadium. ):
okay lets see. had training at 11 this morning. thinking tha ti was late i rushed into the stadium and GUESS WHAT! i was the first one there! coach came behidn me. and i was the only one training at that point of time! stupid stefan came like 45min late! sheesh. hahas. oh well. did a pretty fast warm up. did the right right left left jump thingy. and i did bounding UPHILL! okay maybe thats exaggerated. up a slope is more like it. hahas. did core stability after that and i was a WET! perspired alot today. sophie was disgusted. hahas! yeahh. went with sophie to the bakery after that to get my pathetic lunch for the day. watched the rest of the races. OH! i started on my chinese book! (: it took me an hour to finish 4 pages. :\ and 30min to finish another 10pages? hahas! k that was like so wrong.
oh and poor valerie! she pulled her hamstring. sighs. poor girl! valaweee! you takkaire of your leg okay! get back up and running soon k dear! (:
went to watch the U-15 bpys triple jump. but! and i mean a HUGE BUT. it started to rain REALLY HEAVILY! stupid rain. we were stranded on the other end for an HOUR. sheesh. and i as reading my chinese book. hahas. yay! i learn 2 words today. muahahas. with the help of shen lao shi and miss chan. yupps. oh and they postponed the triple jump to tomorrow morning 10am. oh well. i'm not fated to watch it. hahas. but im gonna try really hard to watch gails race. yupps. k i guess thats all so yeah. bye! (:
{ tear my heart open }
11:03 pm
Friday, April 15, 2005
could you find it in your heart,
to make it go away,
and let me rest in pieces.
okay lets see. this week was the worst week of my life. i screwd up my geography test then i screwd up my social studies test. i am SO GOING TO FAIL MY FREAKING HUMANITIES.
i didn't even complete the ss ppr! shyte. DEEP shyte. sighhs. and guess what? it is also a MAJOR module. I'M DEAD! I'M DEAD! I'M DEAD! haha. i sound like dash! (he's so cute!)
oh well, i guess the rest of the week was fine. went to watch the xc race on wednesday. heehee. i saw sam! (: muahahas. and i met a million people that day! so happy. all my old friends. yupps. lets see. we did not too bad actually! (: b div girls got top! yay!
hmm what else, training has been pretty slack! just been doing medicine ball training. how boring. but tiring. hahas. and only left me, stefan and dickson without competition. so 3 of us had to do training today. had gym. did full squats WHICH killed my thighs. was so tired. almost fell when i did 60kg. hell! and since there WERE NO GIRLS TO DO GYM WITH ME( STARES AT GAIL ) stefan and mr quintin had to help me. hahas. oh well. by the time i finished training my legs were all wobbly! almost fell while walking down the stairs. hahas.
anyway thank goodness its friday! gonna have training at gombak at 11 tmr! ughs. i dont want. so HOT. hope get to practice triple! (: im starting to love it since LJ hates me. hahas. okay thats enough. NIGHTS! (:
{ tear my heart open }
10:50 pm
Saturday, April 09, 2005
hello hello! I AM A HAPPY GIRL!
YAYY~
i am freaking happy!
see! I AM HAPPY! (: (: (:
why??
cause i got 2nd place in triple jump!
YEAHH! (:
angie and i kepy our promise
to KICK ASSES! xD
oh YEAH MAN!
wohoooo
teeheeeeees.
k thats actually everything i wanted to say
BYE! I AM HAPPY! (:
{ tear my heart open }
6:40 pm
lets see..
TODAY IS THE DAY! argh
triple jump. my LAST and FINAL chances for at least getting top 8.
sighhs. oh well. gotta try my best i guess.
praying that my ankle will hold.
hmms. the week was alright i guess.
nothing much happened.
had a parent-teacher-meeting today.
was kinda boring.
and i had chocolate! -beams
from dr seet of course!
who else could provide so much chocolate.
well. my overall grades are okay i guess.
3A1 3B3 and a C6. hee hee.
guess which sub is C6!
like DUH CHINESE! sheesh.
gotta buck up.
its like a million points from 10points :
and i think i slept on my eye! xits puffy and it hurts!
{ tear my heart open }
11:05 am
Sunday, April 03, 2005
first things first.
weather sucked.
leg sucked.
knee lift sucked.
jump sucked.
(and you go "there she goes grumbling again.")
well, what can i do?
BUT, i'm not go into depression and what not's.
well, the day started of great! (:
went to church. sat with angie and both of us were nervous together.
hahahas. weird us.
she took a lift with us and we had lunch.
and we both drank carrot + green apple juice!
muahahas.. (:
went to gombak.
weather was CRAZY AS HELL!
so darn bloody HOT!
drained all my energy.
i was perspiring at ps and while warming up
i was drenched! practically raining.
sheesh.
praticed jumps were fine.
just that i didn't go high enough and
i kept over-stepping the board. ):
and when the actual jump came.
i screwd it all up.
stupid me. my best was what? 4.08m
because of MY BUTT.
big ass.
think everyone wasn't doing as well as they should.
like 50cm behind? yeahh.
comforted angie. she was so sad.
but managed to get her back smiling! (:
went back and comforted myself.
ate food and i wore gails MEDAL
to keep me happy! lols!
like 10ppl thought i had 1st!
-snorts.
oh wells. OH OH!
SAMMIE IS BACK! HEEHEE! ^^V
screamed like i said i would when i saw him
and i saw someone else with him! giggles.
:DD i bet sam was sooo happy then. ELI ELI! x)
lets see. the rest of the runners were GREAT MANS!
weee. so fun! hahas. so COOL! (:
ahh well. gonna go back to school tomorrow.
yupps. toodles! (:
{ tear my heart open }
7:02 pm
Saturday, April 02, 2005
hey SOOT. haha TOOT here to invade again! since i cant seem t be able to see your entries, i decided to invade! hahah sighs my com's screwed la. *hints* anyways! just wanna say JIA YOU! *takes out poms poms to cheer for you* haha i knw i'll still get to wish u tml but decided i'll just wish u twice la. hahah. aint i such a wunnerful fren! x) hahah. oh wells. all the best YA. i'll be praying for you! (: take care dear gal! *BIGhugs* see u tml! iloveyouuu!HEH. i really do OKAY. hahah. never doubt MY erms. LOVE. haha. OH and cheer up! she'll return! dogs are able to find their way home one! (: so dun worry k!
{ tear my heart open }
10:07 pm
let's say today was a rather eventful day! (:
had national juniors! yupps! -nods
and i think we trashed everyone la! so cool!
muahahahahas~
we pratically dominated every event.
anyway went there for warm up and guess what...
it just happen TO RAIN! SHEESH -pouts
how FUN. warm up in the rain.
got drenched by the time we did drills.
wow. i so loved that. -rolls eyes
gail rocked her event LA! (:
so proud to call her my junior!
but, I HATE her too!
pouts pouts pouts pouts pouts!
she got the freaking championship record
with a 10.40+ and guess what.
she fouled her last jump.
which was a FREAKING 10.95!
WHAT IN THE WORLD WERE YOU THINKING GIRL?!
man man man. and the reason i hate her?
i haven't even reached 10m.
-ashamed.
stefan got a record too! (:
so happy for him.
oh oh i think the judges were BIASED!
han wei was like the only sole competitor for stefan.
and guess what. he should be placed 2nd
BUT, he fouled all his jumps. why?
because he didn't tay on the spot.
stupid.
SO SAD LA! ):
BIASED JUDGES! -HMPFF
oh i collected gail's medal on her behalf!
x) so cool. MUAHHA! i got the medal!
IM NOT GIVING IT BACK! NONO~
just kidding! (:
oh well. tomorrow is MY TURN! ahhh~
i'm gonna get a nervous breakdown or something!
ughs~
i hope my ankle holds.
i'm gonna push my luck.
gonna pray hard.
and i don't think its gonna work very well?
am i asking too much?
did all this happen because,
i negleted God?
i think so.
i've negleted him for so long.
he's so near yet so far.
guess its back to devotion again.
well gonna repent at church tmr.
forgive me my Lord. (:
{ tear my heart open }
9:35 pm
Friday, April 01, 2005
sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh!
IM DEPRESSED MORTIFIED SAD FURIOUS! )':
someone took my dog away.
someone stole her!
she ran off.
she didn't come back.
she left my house unguarded
WHY THE HELL DID SHE RUN AWAY?!
or WHY THE HEL DID SOMEONE FREAKING HELL TAKE HER!
i'm not gonna say F**K you, but instead
i'm gonna pray that someone will return her
(if they know where she ran off from)
or that she will find her way back.
i want my dog back.
I REALLY REALLY WANT HER BACK!
):
{ tear my heart open }
7:46 pm
